after a long months of guessing about our second baby's gender, we finally know it today. We have a baby boy once again! It was quite shocking for all of us especially to Jireh, my eldest son, because he use to call our baby as "baby girl", he actually argue with my Obygyn. During my ultrasound session, the Obygyn told us, 'It's a boy, we can now clearly see...look! But then Jireh shouted, 'no, baby girl yan!'. The Obygyn told us once again, 'let's try to look again in other view', "Oh, see here it is, this is really a boy!' Jireh exclaimed once again, 'No, girl yan!'.
Jireh wants to have a baby sister. that's what he has been claiming. When people ask about the name of our baby, he will say without any hesitation 'baby girl'. Well, i want to have a baby girl too, like what my baby Jireh wanted.
But before our excitement goes toward the gender of our baby, i would like to tell a story how this child in my womb become an example of God's Miracle. By the way, all of our children are gifts from above, a miracle from above. I just want to share that it's a miracle in a way that we don't expect that i would still have a baby since my other ovary was not fully functioning. It was previously removed due to my dermoid cyst. That's why the doctor already told us that i have only small chances of getting pregnant. But i don't really believed in such impossibility, I believe in POSSIBILITY, in MIRACLES! Because I have a miracle-working and living God that exist to show the world that He is REAL! Now, here it is! He gave me a second baby. God proves it that He works miraculously...we just have to believe!
Rewind..., knowing that i'll have a baby was also backed up with my dreams that took place way back in early months of year 2010. In that dream, I saw Jireh, who was 7 years old in that dream, and another boy beside him, whose age is around 4 years old. They were with me and calling their 'daddy'. That's part of my dream. I didn't mind that during those years because we plan to have a baby only when Jireh is about 3 years old; because i've undergone cesarean section before. Beside, that was only a dream! But that dream struck me, and means to me.
Years passes by, now, here at last. The dream turns to reality. Whenever i was asked about the gender of this baby in my womb, i would say, "I believe it's a boy! because i saw it in my dream". But will catch up my line by saying, "pero, i still hope it would be a girl'.
But then, my dreams is shifting to reality. I've told some of my friends about my dream, and my belief that it was a boy. Actually, i want to play a guessing game with my husband regarding the gender of this baby. We did that before and I won! But this time, he didn't want to play it with me., scared of losing the bet???
Regarding dreams...,
how will you stop me from believing in dreams, when my dreams are turning into reality. and how can i separate the two, when the two is becoming one? Can you blame me of being a dreamer? Will you blame me, if sometimes, my guess are right?if my dreams are coming true? It's hard to have such a gift like this. Sometimes, i wish, i don't have it. It's much harder to play the game of life, when you're aware of what is about to happen, especially in major events in your life. You know what might took place, but then got no idea of how to interpret the other details. Sometimes, that shakes my ground!
By March, next year...my due date. If God's willing that will be the start of the ticking of the clock for my 2010 dreams to take place. I know that i shouldn't give too much attention in that dream. But still like with my other dreams, i have to be very careful, and I should know the right action that i need to do when my dreams started to make it a big leap to conquer reality.
I can't tell the scope of the my whole dream. That's so personal. It might happen or not. It might be true or fake. The real score here is that i still got the key. My decisions is the key that will lock/unlock any situations that I might encounter in the future. I still have a choice, whether I'll have that dream for real, or not.
for now, there still a long journey ahead of us.
I decided not to linger in that dreams. But to focus on what i have in present. May God bless us always, may our second son be His servant for His honor and glory!
~enelra~
